The past few months have been, well, long and it’s been even longer since I initially planned to come back to blogging.
I’ve felt these past months more than I have in a long time, and I think it’s because a lot has changed. I never realized how much becoming an adult would affect me since it’s something I’ve wanted for a long time. I found myself falling into the old habits of my most difficult years where I could barely drag myself to do more than the bare minimum. This was different than before, though, because I wasn’t unhappy with my new life- my job, my new apartment, and even some new friends- but, it was as if I woke up one morning and couldn’t understand this life and how to feel about it. I felt very confused the last few weeks, and I still do deep down. I find myself looking more and more to the past and analyzing the things I’ve done and said in my high school and college years. I think about where I’ll be in a year, five years, and ten years and how I seem to have less of a clue now than when I entered college 4 years ago. On top of that, my friends are all scattered with most of them living about an hour away and my new friends from work living just as far, me being stuck in the middle. Because I’ve been feeling so out of it, I haven’t had the energy to put much of an effort into anything really, which is kind of the point of this post.
I’ve rambled on quite a bit and don’t expect anyone to actually read this (if you do, thank you for sticking with me) but I needed to use this as an opportunity to really describe how I’ve been feeling. I’ve been telling myself for weeks that I wanted to get back to doing the things I love doing- reading, blogging, connecting with others, yoga! I’ve still been reading and a lot has happened that I can’t wait to share with everyone, but the others have just fallen to the side. I’ll say, I have taken these past few weeks for myself, to really get used to this new lifestyle and all of the new changes. One of the best things that’s happened to me was my adopting a dog named Hunter. He is a 6 year old beagle rescue who LOVES to cuddle and sleep. He’s been one of the few things that has gotten me out of this funk and back to life and now I’m inspired to keep going. I have so many things I want to do and I always talk about them but never take action. I think it’s time for me to work on getting back to life and to the things I enjoy doing. I hope you’re ready for some intense fangirling and LOTS of pictures of Hunter because this is going to be a wild ride!
I’ll leave you with this cute closeup of Hunter on a walk..
Until next time,